Socially Phobic

May 6, 2007

In a strange turn of events,

Filed under: Life in General — iambrave @ 2:50 am

I am writing to stay awake instead of writing because I can’t fall asleep. Tomorrow we travel, making an approximately nine hour drive. Have I mentioned that I hate traveling? Well, I do. I am trying to stay awake right now to do laundry, because leaving every single thing until the very last minute is just the (highly inefficient) way that I roll. To be fair, I have barely done any of the chores associated with this massively important trip. I have basically been lying on the couch paralyzed by either intense anxiety or intense laziness for the past couple of days. Plus, I have a cold. I haven’t had a cold in years, but of course I got one this week.

I have been shamefully neglectful of my blog. But, if it’s any sort of excuse, I am getting married on Friday.

I AM GETTING MARRIED ON FRIDAY. What a strange sentence to write.

It was finals week. I finished three out of four classes, and took an incomplete in one because I couldn’t write my papers. I couldn’t think. My brain has been totally blank. And I am really, really tired.

I can’t really write now, either. It hurts to think. I will be bringing my computer with me, but I don’t know if I’m going to have internet access. We’re staying at a hotel because I think that staying with my mother this week might truly drive me out of my mind. So, this might be the last time that I post for a couple weeks. Sorry that it’s so lame. But the truth is that I am really proud of myself right now. I feel like I did the best that I could this semester and I have worked my ass off planning this wedding and dammit, my socially phobic self is going to be the star of the show in 5 1/2 days AND I’M GOING TO LIKE IT.

If my brain doesn’t explode first, that is.

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5 Comments »

  1. Brava! Brava, Iambrave!

    You finished the semester off with a bang, and managed to put together a huge task — your wedding! I am so thrilled for you and Mr. X. I support your decision to stay in a hotel this week. Don’t worry, Mom will be there plenty enough already. Oh… Happy Mommy! Her baby is getting married.
    We stayed in a hotel over Christmas holiday in Las Vegas (yes, my folks actually retired there *sigh*). It was WAY better than all of us being stepping over each other if we had stayed there.
    I’m sure your mom actually appreciates it too (on some level) 😀

    I am also so proud of you!! Way to go, Girl! You Rawk!

    Seriously, I wish you the most peaceful, meaningful, fun, romantic event of your life. You deserve some fun and dancing after, don’t forget that! I’ll be here waiting for you return at the exact perfect time — whenever is the perfect time. Breathe…. and again….. Breathe….

    Remember, a lot of us her in the blogosphere are cheering you on! Remember all the details so you can blog all about it!

    Congratulations, again, my friend.

    Comment by HSP Woman — May 6, 2007 @ 3:51 am

  2. Congratulations. 🙂

    Comment by Jane — May 6, 2007 @ 10:23 am

  3. Hi Iamscared, hope your big day (today!) goes well!

    Comment by findingmarbles — May 11, 2007 @ 9:01 am

  4. Congratulations and I hope you are having a good time. 🙂

    Comment by cynthiablue — May 12, 2007 @ 11:53 pm

  5. Congrats!!! I hope you have a wonderful, wonderful day! Or had, I guess! I haven’t checked in here for a while. But yes, I hope it was wonderful and look forward to hearing all about it!

    Comment by moodblog — May 15, 2007 @ 9:57 pm


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