Comments on: I have had the urge to tell this story http://iamscared.wordpress.com/2007/04/07/i-have-had-the-urge-to-tell-this-story/ a journal of mental illness Tue, 24 Mar 2009 18:05:47 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 By: iambrave http://iamscared.wordpress.com/2007/04/07/i-have-had-the-urge-to-tell-this-story/#comment-29 iambrave Tue, 10 Apr 2007 05:21:36 +0000 http://iamscared.wordpress.com/2007/04/07/i-have-had-the-urge-to-tell-this-story/#comment-29 Thanks for commenting, katm. I think that it's a funny balance between finding relief in having an explanation for what's been troubling you and then not letting yourself get stuck in believing that you have a fundamental flaw. From the little that I have read on your blog (and plans to read much more), you seem very strong at your core. I wish that they could come up with a better name for so-called "personality disorders" - even if the constellations of symptoms is accurate - for the very reason that you describe. Thanks for commenting, katm. I think that it’s a funny balance between finding relief in having an explanation for what’s been troubling you and then not letting yourself get stuck in believing that you have a fundamental flaw. From the little that I have read on your blog (and plans to read much more), you seem very strong at your core. I wish that they could come up with a better name for so-called “personality disorders” – even if the constellations of symptoms is accurate – for the very reason that you describe.

]]> By: katm http://iamscared.wordpress.com/2007/04/07/i-have-had-the-urge-to-tell-this-story/#comment-23 katm Sun, 08 Apr 2007 04:35:32 +0000 http://iamscared.wordpress.com/2007/04/07/i-have-had-the-urge-to-tell-this-story/#comment-23 When I was first diagnosed with depression, it was a relief. An explanation for the misery I was in and had been in the majority of my life. I had my first suicidal ideations at age 5. Unfortunately I didn't get any treatment until well into my college career. Later when received the PTSD diagnosis I was relieved but scared. Depression was one thing. But to receive a second diagnosis was overwhelming. My final diagnosis was Borderline Personality Disorder. I fought it, long and hard. Despite all that was going on, I couldn't believe that the core of my personality was fundamentally flawed. But then I cooled down some. And I do accept the diagnosis now. It took me a long time. But with therapy, the borderline symptoms are pretty much under control. When I was first diagnosed with depression, it was a relief. An explanation for the misery I was in and had been in the majority of my life. I had my first suicidal ideations at age 5. Unfortunately I didn’t get any treatment until well into my college career.

Later when received the PTSD diagnosis I was relieved but scared. Depression was one thing. But to receive a second diagnosis was overwhelming.

My final diagnosis was Borderline Personality Disorder. I fought it, long and hard. Despite all that was going on, I couldn’t believe that the core of my personality was fundamentally flawed. But then I cooled down some. And I do accept the diagnosis now. It took me a long time. But with therapy, the borderline symptoms are pretty much under control.

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