it must a sign of the mental illness that is pervasive in modern society in order for somebody who is relatively smart to be convinced to:
1. Stand in a little box while UV rays, the very things that I have been warned so directly and severely to avoid at all costs, are directed at my skin.
2. Lie compliantly on a table while hot wax is poured on unmentionable regions of my body and then RIPPED OFF.
I can’t blame society for this one. It would be a cop out to blame anyone but myself for these behaviors. And these things are generally considered sane!
I can’t wait until I get to stop being a Bride and get to start being a “normal” human being again. The good news is that 36 days from tomorrow we get to head off to a secluded cabin in the middle of very beautiful nowhere (with a hot tub, no less) to recover from this ridiculous clusterfuck the happiest day of my life.
Dear Iambrave,
Wow. I’ve read all of your posts and still it just now dawned on me that you are going to school, writing wonderful and prolific blog posts, working, and planning a wedding??? And, on top of it all you have depression and anxiety to deal with? Oh my! I am envious. I think I am superwoman if I get out to do one little errand. You are really hanging in there great. Just hold on for 37 more days. Then, you can exhale, in a hot tub no less. I acknowledge all you are doing now. You really don’t see just how well you are functioning, but I see it!
Comment by HSP Woman — April 7, 2007 @ 3:53 am
HSP, I was right there where you are about the little errands only a year ago. I was even there earlier in the week. But thank you for what you said – I know that I do have a lot going on right now and I suppose that you could even say that I am handling it reasonably well, but my tendency to focus on the negatives is so deeply ingrained.
I actually think that the blog is a large part of what’s helping to keep me sane right now…the writing but also your supportive comments
Comment by iambrave — April 7, 2007 @ 4:19 pm